So now I almost finish my bachelor’s degree, one more exam to tackle and then I’m free.. Sortof.
But I started thinking, what’s next? Will I be working my ass off to get a job? Will I travel around the world? Will I be slacking around, shopping and sitting in a coffee shop for hours doing nothing but watching people pass by? Will I take a master’s degree? Will I marry someone? Will I do the things they told me to do?
Options options options… Sometimes all I wanted to do is to sit back and let everything go whichever direction they want. Sometimes I just wanted to close my ears and my eyes so I don’t have to feel obligated to do things I don’t want to do. Sometimes I feel like taking a deep breath and stand still. No moves, no thoughts.
I feel like having this early 20s crises where I don’t know what I should do in my life. I wish I am not a person who have the tendency to think to much, to plan everything and of course it all have to go on my way. I wish I am more laidback and chill, but I can’t. Believe me I tried, but it’s just not me.
So after a couple of minutes, I still don’t know what should I do next. This is a disaster.
